Do I believe the Bible? Do I REALLY believe that the Lord God, Yahweh, wrote and spoke every word in the Bible through the various writers he chose? Especially in the passages that apply to my role as a wife, support system, lover, helpmate, friend to my husband…?
What about when my perceptions of a wonderful married life are being shattered every day?
Am I really supposed to follow my husband’s lead even in the little things that keep shaping our life VERY differently than I had planned?
What about when my husband’s late again and didn’t call, AGAIN?
Am I really supposed to choose joy and gladness instead of anger and bitterness?
What about when I start feeling like a roommate instead of his other half?
Am I really supposed to choose hope instead of the overwhelming feeling of doom or blame?
When God says to be patient, kind, have no envy, not boast, not be proud, not dishonor others, not be self-seeking, not be easily angered, keep no record of wrongs, not delight in evil, to rejoice with the truth, always protect, always trust, always hope, always persevere.
Does that REALLY apply to ME?
Daily? Practically? In the mess? In the chaos? Amidst the anger?
They are wonderful “abstract” ideas that we can all agree are right and true but when it comes down to applying them daily are we as eager to say AMEN? To say let YOUR will be done Lord?
OR do we choose to fall, once again, and choose anger? Choose biting words towards our husband? Pull him down, yet again, with words of discouragement and blame?
Lord give ME strength to choose love, patience, and kindness.
Humble me in my pride and selfishness, the two things that are really at the root of every wrong response, action, thought towards my husband.
Please Lord, I CAN’T do it without you…
